Walking The Fine Line

Had a doctor's appointment today. Nothing major, just the usual de riguer check up.
One of the reasons I am not very diligent about doctor's appointments is I don't enjoy the wait, which seems interminable, especially if it feels like you are waiting in a meat-locker, minus the meat and with freezing appendages to boot. I don't play video games, don't own a PSP and forgot to bring a book. Sigh.
At some point, I got to see the doctor, thankfully before the beast in my stomach made seriously menacing growling sounds, and here's the rundown:
My blood pressure remains a tad lower than the good doctor is used to and she checks thrice just to be certain. My mom sits with  me thru the course of the consult and this is how the conversation went
(more or less):
Doc: Hmmm. Your BP is still low ha, 60/90.
Mom: Mababa pa rin yon doc, di ba? (That's still low isn't it, doc?)
Doc: Well, she's always had low blood pressure (recalling previous visits)
Mom: Ano ba yung delicado 50-50? (what's the dangerous point? 50/50?)
I had to stifle a laugh - wondering if my mom realizes how funny that question sounded.
The conversation ends with:
Doc: Well, depends on the patient, as long as they are able to walk without passing out, even if their bp is low, then its okay.
Each day we find ourselves able to wake up and get through another day is an amazing thing. I think I forget that sometimes, okay, I forget that a lot. But now that I'm on the topic, let me go on.
Amazing. Incredible!
I have to remember I've got a 50/50 chance.
At being good or being better.
At being snappish or just holding my tongue when I am annoyed.
At getting up and doing something 'useful' with my time or just laying in bed and staring at the ceiling.
At pushing forward through sheer willpower or just giving up just at the thought of having to face another day.
There also is - a fine line they say, between genius and insanity. (I know a few people who are so brilliant, it seems they have crossed and re-crossed this line many times over)
I teeter along this fine line each day, that much I am sure of  - my vision and sense of balance making me believe that I'm sane on most days although I can't really say for sure.
I've got the rest of the afternoon before heading to The Sticks. Time to water the plants, type out some write-ups and fix the stuff I've to cart off for storage in the bigger space in Laguna. Oh, and wouldn't you know it?
I still have time to check email, youtube & Facebook!  Weekends are fun!
P.S.
I learned something new today - Alexander The Great, Napoleon Bonaparte, Joan of Arc, Vincent Van Gogh & Danny Glover all have Epilepsy. (in the case of the aforementioned four individuals had epilepsy if we must be specific haha)
P.P.S.
The doctor ordered blood tests again - but I need not worry about that till March. So. All good, I have until then to keep enough blood in my system to keep my heart beating.
Pass the chips and Pepsi, please.
Let's rock!